We feel everything very deeply and sometimes lack the ability to regulate these deep emotions. Something small may feel like the end of the world to us. When something hurts or upsets us, we go zero to one hundred very rapidly. It is difficult to cope with the pain we are feeling. Once we get into a dysregulated state, our behavior can be very intense and irrational. It can be hard to come out of and often leads to hurting ourselves or those we care about. We don't mean to hurt those we love but can't help it when we are in that state. Once we see the damage we caused, we are ashamed and experience a tremendous amount of guilt. It is a painful and repetitive cycle we feel we will never be able to escape from. It makes us feel unworthy of love even though we have so much love to give. Borderline Personality Disorder causes fear of abandonment, unstable relationships, extreme emotional swings, explosive anger, body dysmorphia, self destructive behavior and self harm. 

   This disorder can cause a lot of damage, but it can also be a beautiful thing. Emotions can also be positive. Because we feel so much, we care so much about everything. We are very passionate about what we love. We have the ability to really empathize with people.  We are loyal and devoted, a ride or die partner. We love hard. We are very generous and always wanting to help others or make a difference in some way. We are inquisitive, having interest to learn more. We become insightful. After experiencing so much pain, we gain self awareness and want to better ourselves. We might relapse several times, but we try our best to persevere. We are beautifully broken in our own way.

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   In this blog, I will talk about my own personal experiences and skills that can be used to improve mental health.